"Anyone can become angry- that is easy. But to be angry with the right person, to the right degree, at the right time, for the right purpose, and in the right way- this is not easy."
ARISTOTLE, The Nicomacbean Ethics
I read in a psychology book titled 'Emotional Intelligence' by Daniel Goleman that anger always builds on anger. The longer we ruminate about what has made us angry, the more 'good reasons' and self justifications we can invent for being angry... Anger is a seductive emotion. Unlike sadness, anger is energizing, sometimes even exhilarating. So I've decided it may be a good idea to express myself by saying- I am angry, but instead, try not to bitch, rant and moan over what has made me angry. Instead I will write to calm myself down.
So I had my job interview today. It went quite well apart from when I started having a coughing fit towards the end of the interview. But I guess that's just a minor set back. I don't know if i got the job yet (I'll hear from them about it tomorrow) but I'm pretty confident with my effort. There has been something playing on my mind however in relation to the job. I only just recently started working at Rafferties Resort and although I've only had one shift, I really enjoy working there. I havnt spoken to Richard (my boss who is lovely) yet about this job and what happens if I get it.. I'm worried about his reaction, I don't want him to think that I'm not loyal. I'm not sure what I'm going to do yet. This new job can be very emotionally demanding and requires me to be able to work night shifts. I wonder if I'd be able to keep both jobs and work at Rafferties during the day... The lady at the interview said that generally not many people are able to juggle two jobs whilst working with this company... I think I'll sleep on it for now. If i get any sleep tonight that is.
Day 4 of my coughing fits and it seems to have only slightly improved. I went to the doctors today just to make sure it wasn't pneumonia or anything like that. the doctor said he's pretty certain its just a virus but had me tested for hooping cough just to be sure. I should have abs of steel by the time I'm finished with this darn thing. My stomach muscles ache. But as my father always says- Ah well, such is life.
I look forward everyday to seeing the new photos that my former school teacher, now newly emerging photographer, Naomi Frost, has edited and posted on Facebook. You see, after I shaved my hair for Shave For a Cure I asked Naomi how much it would cost for a portrait to document my lack of hair and to have a good display picture for my profile for the Leukemia foundation . She was very generous and said she would do a whole photo shoot with me for free for my cause. I was stoked! We had such a fun time getting creative with the camera and I'm so impressed with the works of art she has created! She is an amazing photographer and digital artist! Now, thanks to her, I feel brave, bald and beautiful.
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